shit finally hit the fan

and it hit my eyes, ears, nose, my entire face

God wiped it clean

stayed in front of me

His words surrounded me

make sure I'm in His security

you realized all they've done to damage God's name and glory

only drives you closer to His grace

This is what the Sovereign Lord says:

“In repentance and rest is your salvation,
in quietness and trust is your strength,
but you would have none of it."

For the Lord is a God of justice.

內在真的比外表重要
這是真的
哪怕只有一點點自覺
都比毫無知覺來得好

對很多事情是充滿好奇的，但總是了解個三分鐘就放下好奇了。或是讀到一篇好文章，卻深怕一下子讀完的失落感而堅持先讀一半，給自己持續期待的小火花。然後電腦視窗擁擠不見天日的tags乖乖地排排站，實在不忍直視。

昨晚得知屍體已經打撈上岸了。她走之前在舊金山享受了一晚高級飯店，吃了一頓高檔餐廳，買了一雙好球鞋，抹了一圈漂亮紅唇，搭了一輛五元uber直奔金門大橋，從此音訊全無。她覺得自己沒用，什麼事都做不好，至少自殺這件事得辦得妥妥的。

她這輩子沒見過她媽媽，在生下她後也自殺了，因次她跟爸爸特別親，還承諾我朋友『我絕對不會像我媽媽一樣傷害我爸爸。』

我不求每天要過得快快樂樂 但至少給自己找點活在這世界的理由，很多人注定就是個悲傷的靈魂，或許就注定找不到存活的理由。

"Be yourself, be original, be who you are, stop caring too much." Can these good vibe motto apply to Christians' daily practice? We all become the person that God wants us to become but with that one same ingredient, that one same format.

Again are these motto overrated?  If being original means being spiteful, and apathetic do people still encourage it?  And what's wrong with being indifferent?  If one grew up in an absence of love and caring do we ask too much out of this person?

I found it disturbing that a lot of feminists need their the other half to be masculine.

anger management

things not going my way

warning w/o cursing

realizing not working

commanding with threatening voice

still not working

dropping f bombs

starting to work

dopping more f bombs

things going my way

feeling guilty

feeling sad

(repeat)

bottomline is

I'M NEVER READY