bye for now

星期五最後一天上班 責任雖然卸下但是肩膀上的螺絲還是緊的不得了
沒有畢業旅行的興奮也沒有畢業典禮的感傷  在混亂下踏出了530大樓
一到madison square garden我就跟致弘說 "打賭gaga第一首歌唱的是 the edge of glory"

it's hard to feel the rush to push the dangerous.......

她從一堆耶誕樹中冒出她的臉 還有那又白又大顆的牙齒
我笑了 螺絲也鬆了
感覺可以跳很高很高

原來初老的另一個症狀是 -
需要有人提醒你 you are at a party

i'm yours

BUT

happy 5th anniversary babe.

via le love

marina abramovic

one of my long time favorite performance artists whose short film for human rights was screened as a part of the collective film project "stories on human rights" in 2008.  "toting guns and dressed in camouflage gear, an army of children play war games/  the reality: war is not a game for over 300,000 children worldwide who are direct participants in armed conflicts."

the family III watch here

with her partner ulay, relationin time. originally performed at 1977 for 17 hours at studio g7, bologna watch here

happy halloween

"i denied myself nothing my eyes desired;

i refused my heart no pleasure.
my heart took delight in all my work,
and this was the reward for all my labor.
yet when i surveyed all that my hands had done
and what i had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun."

- Ecclesiastes 2:10-11

cheers to the douchebags

johnny & kate

film of the month

人生要心碎幾次 看破幾回 悔恨重來 才能學會憐憫你的敵人

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today is her funeral

she used to beat me up with her wine bottle til my face started bleeding.  next day she would hold a bouquet and tell me "you are amazing i just adore you."
she broke her one leg a month ago and ever since then she would kiss me on the cheek everyday- not a day did she try to kill me.
today she got shot on the heart by her mother.  she tried to be ok at her last breath but her face started distorting with tears smudging her eyeliner and all blended into wrinkles like cream swirls in coffee.  i was watching her from the door, standing in her shadow and knowing that she once was mine.
the mother later stepped into the room to mourn with us, "everything is gonna be fine.  you are secured."
sun was oddly beaming through the window this afternoon.  i had dreamed about this day.  life has never been this easy.